This week I met the most resistance to writing this blog post I have experienced since I made the commitment to publish biweekly blog posts.
So far every post has been relatively easy and just flowed out of my fingers into the keyboard in a very timely fashion. (Which I am very grateful for since it was a scary commitment!)
But not this week, which actually gave me the idea for this blog post.
Resistance.
I don’t know about you, but I seem to experience quite a bit of internal resistance and have began to take notice of how silly it is at times.
As an example, for a while I totally resisted soaking my feet in epsom salts and actually hated the idea. At some point I had to ask myself, “Really Emily?!, Really?!”
When I let go of this silly resistance I discovered that soaking my feet was actually quite pleasant. It helps nourish my feet to perform well when I dance, is a great way to take care of my hard-working feet and really gives them the support they need and is least of all, worthy of hate.
Also this week, I unpacked my bones – a job I had been putting off since I moved into this apartment many months ago. Now I am able to better study the Franklin Method and prepare for teaching classes in the new year. Yay!
Or when I resist going to ballet class.
I decorate one of my room walls in a rather random, scrapbook-like way. I have the two targets of the first time I shot a 45 acp to remind me that I am a powerful being.
A graduation card with a little girl doing ballet that states, “Life lesson #15 Do what you love”.
A beautiful flyer about the Baroque Eagle – America’s Tallship that I visited with 
my parents. The flyer pictures the tallship sailing out on beautiful, blue immense water, connecting me to open water and the ability to sail through life with the wind.
I add new elements to the collage on my wall as needed.
One of my most recent additions was a beautiful card I bought at my local coop and wrote down a list I created a few months ago entitled “I am committed to…” which so happens to be 15 things.
I created this list in response to the internal resistance I spoke of earlier and as another way to express my goals/dreams/desires through actionable, beautiful steps.
I can see this list every day on my wall, don’t always read every commitment, but I know what they are.
The last commitment I wrote down (that I do find myself reading often) is “BEING ME!” which instantly connects me to the power and wonder of what I can do and be all in a beautiful instant.
What about you? Do you resist positive things in your life? Do you have a list of beautiful commitments that help you reach your beautifully large dreams? I’d love to hear!
Emily Anton 