I am reckless

I am reckless… I toss my heart around and see where it lands.

When you open yourself up to love, you open yourself up to heartbreak.  Heartbreak is terrible, I think the best way to describe it is it leaves you feeling like you have been run over by a truck, a very, very large monster truck.

After my first major heartbreak, I very tangibly knew the risks of giving my heart away again, of loving someone else.  I knew that person could rip my heart out of my chest and stomp all over it.

But, I was willing to take that risk.

Why?!?!

Because I also know the immense joy and happiness that comes from love.  That comes from being in a loving relationship.  From having a life partner.  The joy of going to bed to and waking up to the same beautiful person.  The happiness of coming home to the love of your life.  The joy of quiet and loud moments.  I know the peace of knowing that no matter what life throws at me, I have someone to face it with.  ….

I also know that I will know these things again in my life, perhaps simply because I believe I will.  And that belief is more than enough for me.  Belief can move mountains.  Belief and patience.

So in meantime, as I wait for my prince charming not to come “save” my life but to come share my life with me.

I will love myself.

I will be the perfect partner for myself.

I will treat myself well.

I will buy myself flowers and good food.

I will make coffee for myself every morning.

I will show up for myself every single day.

I will smile at myself in the mirror.

I will take loving care of my body.

I will show love to my friends and family.

I will continue working on myself.

I will do the challenging things.

I will do the things that are good for me and nourish my soul, even if I don’t want to.

I will take walks in the park and admire nature.

I will go to coffee shops and church services and bask in the glory of creation.

I will wander the streets of Manhattan and marvel at mankind.

I will dance.

I will do yoga.

I will move.

I will write.

I will publish.

I will connect.

I will grow and I will TRUST.

I will trust the universe to guide me.

I will trust myself, my feelings, instincts and intuition.

I will feel.

I will be open to all the good, the bad and the ugly.

I will live my life heart forward, feeling, experiencing and loving everything.

And I will wait.

 

This post was written partly in response to The Daily Post: Fifty-Word Inspiration